A Sad Goodbye

Poem I made ages ago...

A Sad Goodbye

I used to have a sad, pathetic and boring life,
Then I met you,
In a small span of time you made my life so exciting,
challenging and breathtaking,
But I never thought that it could also cause me pain, despair and agony,
I never thought that It could also make me cry, weak and depress,
And it did, It hurts!
It hurts more than you imagine,
You hurt me unknowingly,
You made me feel so low and upset,
Seeing you before makes my day,
But today, seeing you makes my day a disaster,
Because it will just remind me of how painful it is to love someone so much and watching him loving somebody else,
Do you know how it hurts every time I see you with her?
Doing the things I wish we'll do together,
Both of you laughing and giggling together,fooling around and joking to each other,sharing the joys and happiness you feel to each other,Seeing the twinkle of your eyes when you're with her made me jealous,
Why am I feeling this?
I guess it's because I'm just really crazy over you,
Do you know how much I love you?
I guess not,
And It's not important anymore, because what I feel won't matter anyway,
You already have her,
You already have your special someone,
And she loves you too, as much as you love her,
So I guess all I need to do is to let go,
To let go of the person whom I love and crazy about,
Because as what they say, love is all about sacrifice,
So here I am, trying to move on,
Sacrificing my love for your own happiness,
I hope she'll love you more than I do,
I hope she will make you happy and in love always
So goodbye now,goodbye to the memories, to the excitements, and to the breath-taking moments,
Time to face the real world now,
Time to feel the hurt and pain that the reality brings.

Look What I Found!!

Look what I found from my old multiply site :

PROM PICTURES!!!

Feb 12 Memories!

• Went bar hopping at 3 am in the morning wearing our prom dresses
• Danced at the stage (of the bar) wearing our prom dresses,
• Walked at the park while raining still wearing our dresses at 4 in the morning (but Altair was so sweet and all, he offered his Barong thing to me so that I won't get wet while he's finding some shelter for us.. (Aaawww) He accompanied me to the lobby to buy some load but it was closed , so he went to one of the girls that had a crush on him and asked for a load but the girl didn't know that the load was for me, lol that was funny... He even rode a bicycle while we're inside the car since we all can't fit and he paid for our food too! )
• Slept at six in the morning in the hotel room with friends still wearing our prom dresses and barongs, (Yes, it was unplanned)
• I called our maid for extra clothes early in the morning and it ended up me and my friends waiting for her and our driver to arrive inside the hotel room for almost 5 hours,
• Went to School sleepless and late for Family Day
• Yes, the day after our prom was our family day, sucks for us but it was a fun day.
  

Feb 11

With my ever 0h-so-hearthrob-smart-&-famous prom date....

That made me cry during my very first PROM....

I don't want to be your friend no more

Poem made years ago

I don't want to be your friend no more

I don't want to be your friend no more
I used to adore you for being a really great friend,
for being so kind, thoughtful and nice,
for being cheerful and bright,
but one day, It just changed
I know you didn't mean to do it,
but you just didn't hurt me, you made me feel so bad,
I feel so insecure and sad,
It feels like you took my happiness away,
You took the person I really like,
The person who I thought could me mine,
But it couldn't be, since he's yours and your his girl,
And I know that as your friend, I should be happy for both of you,
I tried, I really tried,
but I can't,
Coz It still hurts, It hurts so bad,
I'm sorry though,
I'm sorry for feeling this way,
For being so pathetic,
I want to hate you because
That guy made me feel this pain,
But I can't coz this is all my fault,
My heart's fault,
I can't hate you that's why I hate myself ,
I hate myself because, In the first place,
Why did I told you that I like him,
That I want him so bad, that I want him to be mine,
But I didn't know that you and him will one day be friends,
I didn't know that you will love each other,
I didn't know that you will like him too,
But you know what hurts so bad?
It's the the fact that I used to tell you how much he means to me,
That I like him so much,
That I want to be with him,
And now,
All my dreams happened to you,
You became his girl
You're his world,
Your he's everything,
And I'm just some girl who used to be her girlfriend's friend
that turned out to be "a girl that I once new",
But you know what?
I think it's better if we don't see each other for a while,
Because by doing that, maybe,
Just maybe, we can fix and re-build our once was sweet and great friendship.
So, goodbye for now my friend,
And see you soon.

Some Words Of Wisdom From ME, To ME

Things I realized recently,

Sometimes we spend our whole lives searching for the things we want and get upset and mad if things won't work out our way, but if we really look deep into our lives, we have way more than what we’re searching for...

Sometimes, in order to achieve happiness and contentment in life,
all we need to do is appreciate everything we have, and take all the bad things as challenges that we NEED to face in order to grow as better individuals in this world.

Sometimes, being happy doesn’t always mean laughing, smiling or those oh-so-romantic times, happiness could also be self-satisfaction, where you’re satisfied with your life and the only thing that you could say to God is ‘Thank you Lord for this gift of life’.