When She Turned Seventeen

Saying Goodbye To My Sweet Sixteen Year And A BIG HELLO To My 17th Year In This World


It was just last year when I composed an entry about my life being a fifteen years old and welcoming my new age as a sweet sixteen. And now? Here I am again, To say goodbye and hello. Goodbye my sweet sixteen! It's time to move on now and welcome the year ahead of me and time to say Hello to my 17th year at this world.
It's started exactly sixteen years and 22 hours ago when I was born in this chaotic yet beautiful world, 15 years ago when I celebrated my 1st year old birthday and a year ago when I was declared a sweet sixteen but It's now time to bid goodbye to my not-so-sweet-not-so-sour sixteen and welcome the unknown seventeen.
Being a sixteen year old at this complicated and confusing world was pretty hard for me, I've been to many ups and downs and in my road going to heaven I experienced a lot of broken roads and I sometimes even beat the red light and got lots of over speeding tickets. I can be a reckless driver sometimes but thank God, he never left me alone even though sometimes in my dark moments I question his existence, but still he is always there for me guiding me into the right path.
Okay time to reminisce the old gold memories...
It was August 3 2006 when I celebrated my sweet sixteen birthday and also my first birthday here in Lubbock. I don't really have close friends back then since I just got here 4 months ago from that day so the guest at my birthday party was just my parents friends not my friends but still it was an okay birthday celebration nothing really special except for the new year that God had given me. Then Aug 22 came, First day of school, proud yet embarrased to say I was the first one or one of the first students who arrived at (our school) Frenship, Sat at the cafeteria alone but during lunch time there was a girl (my batch) she asked me if I want to sit with them, and I did then I already had a friend when I was seating at the bench, front of the vending machine and restrooms waiting for my turn to buy something I saw a filipino dude that I saw on friendster but we didn't really greet each other then next class came it was psychology and that filipino dude was also on that class, when the "introduce yourself part came" we started talking to each other since he knew that I'm a filipino too and he was like "filipino ka rin pala! sabi ko na nga be eh" (LOL) then after that we became seat mates and he's name is Mark. After that I also met two young filipino ladies they are Shane and Krisgel , after that we're always together. Then I started to gain friends in school.

It was just one of those ordinary days, I'm bored so I was at TT again and there I knew Anje, we started as teentalk sisters then turned into real sisters! LOL. I first met her at Vam's party. Well, talking about Vam, we knew each other for so long but we never talk to each other before ,hahaha! that's how shy we used to be. She was introduced to me by Tita Marian when I was still new here in LBB after that Hi, nothing happened. We used to see each other all the time since our parents are friends and we even went to San Antonio together but we're not even close or friends? Basta, we became close because of someone and also at her party with Anje. Anje me and mark were classmates at Driver's Ed so we hanged-out every night! (LOL) Anje is also my telebabad mate we can stay at the phone for 7 hours talking about anything and we cursed alot but not to "everybody" (lol). And about Cris, It started at Vam's party too! We keep on calling him to go to Vam's party we even let Vam's mom talked to Cris and at the end he came and then after that every party we're all together. Then a few months later, Krisha and Kat came, I first met then at Cris's party, then Claire and Au too! Although we don't really see each other often, we're all friends. And that's our mini story. BOW
They're my Teen friends I have other set of friends too but since I'm too lazy to type let's just skip them!

The Serious Part
In 17 years of living in this world, I learned a lot of things that are very impossible to forget, maybe because of the reasons behind it, some caused me pain, some made me laugh so hard, some made me cry real hard that I can't even utter a word anymore, some just simply inspired me and some caused me to avoid but all in all because of those, I am who I am today, Scarred yet still Beautiful.As what I learned from my search in times before, when I was still in La Salle, "I am beautiful because I'm Scarred" heck yeah, I still remember those.Now, In 17 years of breathing and causing my parents a headache I can say that I'm stronger and braver than what you think. For just a year, It may not be so obvious but I had face too many problems more than you ever imagine at my age, kept numerous secrets, shed gallons of tears and been hurt a thousand times. I been just quite most of the time but no one really knows what I feel deep inside. But I'm PROUD to say that I have overcome those things! I had surpass every trial and temptations. Thanks for my family for being so supportive and patient all the time. I know I can be stubborn and mean but still, you're there to understand me and love me no matter what, I'm really a bad daughter SOMETIMES (and I know that). I answer back and say what I wanna say but you all are still there never surrendered to love and take care for me, I know I'm soo lucky to have a family like this but there are times that I failed to appreciate it and I'm really sorry for that, and most of all I'm sooo lucky to have a mother like my mom, She is the best mom you could ever have that's why I am the luckiest daughter in the world because she's my mom. And of course, I also thankful for my friends, my friends in the Philippines and here in Lubbock. Because of them I was able to appreciate the color of life and the fun that it brings. I have so many friends and most of them are so great and I love them so much. My family, my friends and my God is my LIFE and the reason why I am still here living this beautiful life.
As I reminisce my 525 948.766 minutes, I realized that these set of new people who I share my life with right now, has been so good to me especially the Lubbock people who became my second family . And most of the new people I met recently has been so nice and good to me also. I have been blessed by a great...great set of people in my life wether it's in The Philippines or here. And I'm very grateful, glad and thankful for the people I shared my life with in the Philippines, it's been years but you never failed to keep in touch with me, you never failed to forget me and Im very ,very blessed to have you all and I know you know who you are. I'm soo blessed by many wonderful things and people in my life and I don't even realize it sometimes.
I can be really mean and rude, and I can be obnoxious and stubborn too but if you're nice to me I can be sooo nice to you too, more than you could ever imagine, just dont mess with me and we're okay. I've been blessed by very patient, caring and understanding people and I don't even know If I deserve everything I have but God just love me so much.

So, to my friends, my love ones in The Philippines, Thank you so much guys! you just never know how much I miss you all and how much you all mean to me. Wether you came from Iloilo, Bacolod, Jimalalud or Sipalay basta I am so thankful to have you in my life because without each one of you I'm not who I am today and you just never know how much you helped and inspired me in living here at this crazy world. You all are my strength every time I'm weak and longing to my beloved country. I miss Philippines so much and most especially you guys because you all are the main reason why I want to go back there badly, and the sweetest days of my life are still in The Philippines and Philippines is still my number 1 home forever! I love you so much guys!
*sigh*
Life is complicated yet exciting, full of problems yet wonderful.
Goodbye to my sweet sixteen days....It was fun, great but at the same time full of confusions. Full of tears, hurts and pains but thanks to these things I learned something special. I experienced so many things this year, It's tough, there are so many awful and bad things that happened but as long as I have my family and friends I can do everything, surpass anything and battle everyone. My family,friends and God, they are my secret weapons in life they are precious than everybody or anything in this world and I will never trade them for anything in this world because they are my life. In 17 year's of traveling in my journey of life, I realized a lot of things, things that I should let go, things that I should value and love.

To end this entry,
I want to say a BIG THANK YOU for every one who are part of my life. Thank you so much. And I thank GOD for being such a great, loving and a very understand father and best friend to me and for giving me everything that I have, everything that I accomplished at this point of my life, I felt so blessed!
So I guess, this is the final goodbye to my sweet sixteen
anda big HELLO and WELCOME to my 17th year in this world.
Let's see what will happen this year.
Love,
Camille