She Felt Soo Contented and Satisfied With Her Life

GUESS WHAT?

Contentment and self-satisfaction is actually happening in real life!
I used to think that contentment and self-satisfaction is out of reach, then recently, I stumbled with some people & their stories,that it made me realize it's actually happening in real life. Ain't that great?
One of my greatest wish is to live a life with contentment, where there's nothing else to ask for but only to be thank for. I even came to the point where I thought it's just one of those dreams that nobody can reach and that it only happens in fairy tales, romantic movies and novels...
Then these people made me realized how unappreciative and selfish I am.
These people are the ones who are worthy to be admired and look up to, they are the ones who we should adore and be proud of . These people who even though they don't really have a "very fabulous life" they consider themselves as one of the luckiest people alive in this world, they can't forget to thank God for every little blessing they received, they don't think of problems as burdens of their lives but as challeges to be faced and a new experiences to be learned.
Aren't they inspiring?
Just imagine our world if all of the people are like them.
But our world nowadays is full of sins, selfishness and insecurities that serves as a barrier of who we really are or who we should be, it blocks the true happiness and the real love that we have inside our hearts. They are the wrappers of our lives, they wrap our good sides so that it'll be unseen-able. They come in different ways and I’m sure in a very attractive way that it’s easier for you to be deceive but when you really think about it, it’s not the wrapper that is important but the thing inside that wrapper. The most important thing is the real love that you have in your life and the real happiness that you will only experience when you have GOD in your life, not in the material things and temporary happiness around you but on how you live your life. And living a life with real happiness and real GOD is the best and the only way to have a great life that every human being in this world is aiming for.

What Is Happiness

In 17 years of my existence in this world, I had experienced a lot of things that made me who I am today. Those experiences are composed of different kinds of emotions that include sadness, loneliness, happiness and a lot more. However, what is really the true meaning of the word "happiness"? According to the Merriam Webster dictionary, the word happiness is defined as enjoying prosperity, a state of well-being and contentment, and a pleasurable or satisfying experience. When people think of happiness, they think about having a great feeling inside, having power over anyone, being popular or famous, or just having lots of money or being rich. Nonetheless, there are many types of happiness which are expressed in many ways. Happiness is something you can't just get. It comes from your soul.In my own point of view, there is really no exact and accurate definition of the word "happiness". Each and every one of us has our own definition of what happiness is and it is based from our experiences and the people we encounter through our journey in this life. John Milton once wrote that “the mind is its own place, and in itself, can make heaven of hell, and a hell of heaven." We make our own happiness and control our own emotions. It is in our hands if we choose to be happy or sad, if we choose to smile or frown because happiness is within ourselves. Happiness can be anything in this world. In kids, it can just be a candy or a chocolate bar. If you're a mom, it could be giggling with your children while lounging around on a Saturday morning in bed, or receiving an A+ grade o r a promotion, getting a phone call from someone you haven't heard from in a while, or just spending a day with the special people in your lives and knowing that someone loves you as much as you love them. Happiness is anyone and anything that you love. Different things make different people happy at different times at different stages of their lives. What makes one happy at a certain time is not necessarily the same as what makes another happy. But for me, my happiness is not found in any material things in this world. Not in fame, power or money but it is found in the people whom I shared my life with. Happiness for me is knowing that my family and friends are safe, secure and healthy, having a home filled with love and laughter, having a life that has no complaints, no problems, no sadness, and no misfortune.
Happiness for me is also doing things for others not because you need to but just simply because you love them, or just hearing "I love you" from my family, friends or any special people in my life whether it's in English or another language. Also, when I'm helping other people and putting their needs above my own, and I know how appreciative they are of my help. I think less about my own selfish wants and needs and find myself perfectly happy at that moment. Although people can get their happiness from many different sources, the most prevalent derivations that cause happiness are family and friends. They are our main sources of happiness. Friendship improves happiness by making our life more colorful and full of wonders and joys. Families are our weapon in every battle we make. In every pain we feel, they are our medicine in every wound we get in this battle of life. Having a wonderful set of friends, a supportive and loving family and most of all God, is all I need to be happy and contented in this journey of life.
I think the way most people would describe their perfect life is actually quite different from what would make them happy. Rather than coming up with imaginary situations that we can label as ideal, we should make the best of the situations we've got – both by improving them, and by appreciating them for what they are. Happiness is one of the most important aspects of a person’s life. Whatever the source, happiness is definitely an essential necessity of life.

When She Turned Seventeen

Saying Goodbye To My Sweet Sixteen Year And A BIG HELLO To My 17th Year In This World


It was just last year when I composed an entry about my life being a fifteen years old and welcoming my new age as a sweet sixteen. And now? Here I am again, To say goodbye and hello. Goodbye my sweet sixteen! It's time to move on now and welcome the year ahead of me and time to say Hello to my 17th year at this world.
It's started exactly sixteen years and 22 hours ago when I was born in this chaotic yet beautiful world, 15 years ago when I celebrated my 1st year old birthday and a year ago when I was declared a sweet sixteen but It's now time to bid goodbye to my not-so-sweet-not-so-sour sixteen and welcome the unknown seventeen.
Being a sixteen year old at this complicated and confusing world was pretty hard for me, I've been to many ups and downs and in my road going to heaven I experienced a lot of broken roads and I sometimes even beat the red light and got lots of over speeding tickets. I can be a reckless driver sometimes but thank God, he never left me alone even though sometimes in my dark moments I question his existence, but still he is always there for me guiding me into the right path.
Okay time to reminisce the old gold memories...
It was August 3 2006 when I celebrated my sweet sixteen birthday and also my first birthday here in Lubbock. I don't really have close friends back then since I just got here 4 months ago from that day so the guest at my birthday party was just my parents friends not my friends but still it was an okay birthday celebration nothing really special except for the new year that God had given me. Then Aug 22 came, First day of school, proud yet embarrased to say I was the first one or one of the first students who arrived at (our school) Frenship, Sat at the cafeteria alone but during lunch time there was a girl (my batch) she asked me if I want to sit with them, and I did then I already had a friend when I was seating at the bench, front of the vending machine and restrooms waiting for my turn to buy something I saw a filipino dude that I saw on friendster but we didn't really greet each other then next class came it was psychology and that filipino dude was also on that class, when the "introduce yourself part came" we started talking to each other since he knew that I'm a filipino too and he was like "filipino ka rin pala! sabi ko na nga be eh" (LOL) then after that we became seat mates and he's name is Mark. After that I also met two young filipino ladies they are Shane and Krisgel , after that we're always together. Then I started to gain friends in school.

It was just one of those ordinary days, I'm bored so I was at TT again and there I knew Anje, we started as teentalk sisters then turned into real sisters! LOL. I first met her at Vam's party. Well, talking about Vam, we knew each other for so long but we never talk to each other before ,hahaha! that's how shy we used to be. She was introduced to me by Tita Marian when I was still new here in LBB after that Hi, nothing happened. We used to see each other all the time since our parents are friends and we even went to San Antonio together but we're not even close or friends? Basta, we became close because of someone and also at her party with Anje. Anje me and mark were classmates at Driver's Ed so we hanged-out every night! (LOL) Anje is also my telebabad mate we can stay at the phone for 7 hours talking about anything and we cursed alot but not to "everybody" (lol). And about Cris, It started at Vam's party too! We keep on calling him to go to Vam's party we even let Vam's mom talked to Cris and at the end he came and then after that every party we're all together. Then a few months later, Krisha and Kat came, I first met then at Cris's party, then Claire and Au too! Although we don't really see each other often, we're all friends. And that's our mini story. BOW
They're my Teen friends I have other set of friends too but since I'm too lazy to type let's just skip them!

The Serious Part
In 17 years of living in this world, I learned a lot of things that are very impossible to forget, maybe because of the reasons behind it, some caused me pain, some made me laugh so hard, some made me cry real hard that I can't even utter a word anymore, some just simply inspired me and some caused me to avoid but all in all because of those, I am who I am today, Scarred yet still Beautiful.As what I learned from my search in times before, when I was still in La Salle, "I am beautiful because I'm Scarred" heck yeah, I still remember those.Now, In 17 years of breathing and causing my parents a headache I can say that I'm stronger and braver than what you think. For just a year, It may not be so obvious but I had face too many problems more than you ever imagine at my age, kept numerous secrets, shed gallons of tears and been hurt a thousand times. I been just quite most of the time but no one really knows what I feel deep inside. But I'm PROUD to say that I have overcome those things! I had surpass every trial and temptations. Thanks for my family for being so supportive and patient all the time. I know I can be stubborn and mean but still, you're there to understand me and love me no matter what, I'm really a bad daughter SOMETIMES (and I know that). I answer back and say what I wanna say but you all are still there never surrendered to love and take care for me, I know I'm soo lucky to have a family like this but there are times that I failed to appreciate it and I'm really sorry for that, and most of all I'm sooo lucky to have a mother like my mom, She is the best mom you could ever have that's why I am the luckiest daughter in the world because she's my mom. And of course, I also thankful for my friends, my friends in the Philippines and here in Lubbock. Because of them I was able to appreciate the color of life and the fun that it brings. I have so many friends and most of them are so great and I love them so much. My family, my friends and my God is my LIFE and the reason why I am still here living this beautiful life.
As I reminisce my 525 948.766 minutes, I realized that these set of new people who I share my life with right now, has been so good to me especially the Lubbock people who became my second family . And most of the new people I met recently has been so nice and good to me also. I have been blessed by a great...great set of people in my life wether it's in The Philippines or here. And I'm very grateful, glad and thankful for the people I shared my life with in the Philippines, it's been years but you never failed to keep in touch with me, you never failed to forget me and Im very ,very blessed to have you all and I know you know who you are. I'm soo blessed by many wonderful things and people in my life and I don't even realize it sometimes.
I can be really mean and rude, and I can be obnoxious and stubborn too but if you're nice to me I can be sooo nice to you too, more than you could ever imagine, just dont mess with me and we're okay. I've been blessed by very patient, caring and understanding people and I don't even know If I deserve everything I have but God just love me so much.

So, to my friends, my love ones in The Philippines, Thank you so much guys! you just never know how much I miss you all and how much you all mean to me. Wether you came from Iloilo, Bacolod, Jimalalud or Sipalay basta I am so thankful to have you in my life because without each one of you I'm not who I am today and you just never know how much you helped and inspired me in living here at this crazy world. You all are my strength every time I'm weak and longing to my beloved country. I miss Philippines so much and most especially you guys because you all are the main reason why I want to go back there badly, and the sweetest days of my life are still in The Philippines and Philippines is still my number 1 home forever! I love you so much guys!
*sigh*
Life is complicated yet exciting, full of problems yet wonderful.
Goodbye to my sweet sixteen days....It was fun, great but at the same time full of confusions. Full of tears, hurts and pains but thanks to these things I learned something special. I experienced so many things this year, It's tough, there are so many awful and bad things that happened but as long as I have my family and friends I can do everything, surpass anything and battle everyone. My family,friends and God, they are my secret weapons in life they are precious than everybody or anything in this world and I will never trade them for anything in this world because they are my life. In 17 year's of traveling in my journey of life, I realized a lot of things, things that I should let go, things that I should value and love.

To end this entry,
I want to say a BIG THANK YOU for every one who are part of my life. Thank you so much. And I thank GOD for being such a great, loving and a very understand father and best friend to me and for giving me everything that I have, everything that I accomplished at this point of my life, I felt so blessed!
So I guess, this is the final goodbye to my sweet sixteen
anda big HELLO and WELCOME to my 17th year in this world.
Let's see what will happen this year.
Love,
Camille

She's Tougher Than LIFE

There are times when I'm overwhelmed by the things around me and the problems that I am facing that caused me to hurt a lot of people even my love ones. Is life really complicated or I'm just the one who made it complicated? But I know that Life is full of test, in every actions we made we are tested on how we respond to it. We are graded not by the things we have but on who we are deep inside our hearts. I was really a bad girl back then; I hate it when things don't go my way and when I don't get what I want. I guess you can call me a spoiled brat since a lot of people think I am, a girl who fights because she can't solve her problems with compassion, a girl who thinks that if she has all the material things that a girl her age could wish she will be the happiest person in the whole world, a girl who thinks that she is the luckiest person in the planet because her parents can give her mostly of anything she wants, and her playmates adored her because of what she has ,not by who she really is. Yeah, I was a really mean, selfish, obnoxious and pathetic girl before. But believe it or not, that mean, selfish, obnoxious and pathetic girl changed, but she went through a lot of hardships, trials, problems, tears and pains first before she realized what really life is all about, she realized that she was the most pathetic girl that she ever knew, she realized that material things are not really that important, It is also the reason why the world is full of selfish people, those people that are so full of themselves, those people who don't mind killing someone just to satisfy their own self, and most of all those people who are so attached to this world that they will do anything just to be the greatest person that they can be even if it's worth someone's life or feelings. We should always remember that the most important things in this life is not on how rich we are, how cool and pretty we are but on how we live our lives that God gave us, on how we use the talents and gifts that he bestowed upon us and on how good we answer the tests that he gave us. Life is full of tests, and those tests are created by God to make us the person he wants us to be, but before we answer those questions, we should see to it that God will be impress on the outcome of our scores. Before doing something or deciding something, see to it that the outcome of that "something" is good not just for yourself but for the people around you also. And if you will always remind yourself that life is full of test you can always find a good reason and answer to everything that is happening in your life right now. Humans as we are, we are fund of questioning rational things and the purpose of things. We always asked questions like "what is the purpose of life?", "where do we came from?" If you will ask these questions to everybody you can find countless answers and those answers are based on their own experiences but, why are we really here? Well for me, we are all here because GOD created us so we are his children and the masterpiece of all his creations. What is the purpose of life? The purpose of life is to serve our Father and we can serve him by just loving his creations and it includes your enemies, the people who hate you and most of all yourself. It may not be easy to love our enemies but sometimes we need to be more understanding, patient and kind towards each other especially to our enemies. There times that I wish I could turn back time and stop it on the day that I was in The Philippines again together with my family and friends having the time of my life, It's just one of my selfish desires that sometimes overcomes my emotions, that lead be into being depress and homesick. One thing I learned about it is that, if you keep on holding your past, you can never move on, but It's just so easy for me to say it, It's really hard when you're in that situation.. Well, who wants to let go of the sweetest and happiest days of their lives? I bet no one would, but sometimes we need to let go so that we can move one and live a new sweet and happy life again.
Life is tough but we are tougher coz we have the ability to think and love, Life is just a place and we have the power to control it, so don't ever say that LIFE is hard because you are the one made it hard.