A Letter To Remind You Always

Dear Camille,

As you travel the sea of life, always remember that the ride will not always going to be smooth, there will always be thunderstorms and huge waves that are going to hit you, but hold on, always stay firm and focus. Don’t let those thunderstorms and waves keep you from your dreams and happiness in life. Take them as challenges that you need to face for you to grow and be a better person. As time goes on, you will be experiencing different kinds of emotions, don’t be scared because it’s just normal, every person in this sea of life goes there. Don’t be sad if people who are close to your heart will leave you. I know it’s painful but that’s life, people come and go, just hold on to all the learning that you’ve got from them and the sweet memories that you had but let go of the sad feeling, accept the fact that their destination is different from yours and move on. Don’t be lonely if life doesn’t always go the way you want it to be, because your life is already planned in a very beautiful way, maybe you can’t understand it now yet but just stay faithful and give your full trust to your Creator. He knows what’s best for you. From time to time, you will be experiencing loneliness, you will feel alone and empty. You may think that everybody turned their back at you. Use this time to reflect, think of all the things you did, the people in your life and on how you lived your life. I know loneliness and emptiness are very distressing but that’s just part of life, just like happiness and excitement, the things that people feel and go through. When you feel alone and empty, don’t hold on to that feeling. Don’t worry, it’s just temporary if you know how to deal with it. Take it as a reason to do something more meaningful in your life. When things get shaky and rough, it doesn’t mean it’s the end of your journey. No, it’s just a sign that something good will happen to you, there will always be a rainbow after the rain. Along your journey you will also meet different kinds of people who have different beliefs, religion, culture and life than you. They may be different but it doesn’t mean you can’t get along with them. The world is full of differences and that’s what makes us unique. Instead of turning away from them, get to know them, understand them and explore their world because by doing that, you will not just learn new things but most of all, you will gain a treasure and that is the gift of friendship. Don’t look at differences as a bad thing, instead look at that as a blessing. God gave us different roles to portray in this world, we have different task and missions to accomplish as well as different dreams and goals to achieve. Don’t look down to other people just because you think you’re better than them, it’s not fair. They may be poor, not so good-looking, has different color, race or personality than you, but it doesn’t mean someone’s better than the other, no, it’s just that we may be created differently but equally (in an equal way) and I want you to always remember that. Life is not a competition but a journey to be traveled and enjoyed. Along your journey, you will also meet people that are difficult to deal with, you may think their stubborn and hateful but don’t hate them. They may hate you, hurt you or just simply dislike you, but instead of doing the same things to them, stay nice, understanding and loving. I know it’s hard but don’t let human emotions get you down. Take them as challenges for yourself, for you to grow and see different views of life. Always remember that no one is pure evil in this world, no matter how rude or hateful a person is, there is always a good side behind that, you may not see it now yet but if you wait long enough, you will and you’ll be surprise how great of a person they are. Being hateful is not always the answer, and will never be but the opposite of that is. I know this is already a very lengthy letter, I hope you’ll follow all of these, this will not just help you grow as a person but also in your faith. Be strong and compassionate always, make this letter a reminder in your everyday life as you travel your way through your destination.

P.S Don’t forget to SMILE and HAVE FUN from time to time, you need that too, it’s a necessity of life.

Love,

Yourself

A Wonderful Story

18 years ago, a blessed couple had their first child and it was a baby girl. She was born in this world with tender, love and care that her parents and the people around her had given her. She was raised with compassion, freedom, and dignity. She spent her grade school and high school years in different schools and places. At the age of 9, she was already away from her family, she went to school 10 hours away from her parents and her real home. She stayed with her Lola Rose for a couple of years, although her Lola loved her soooo much, she still missed her family so bad, especially her mom. She would cry every night and wait for her parent’s call all the time. Even at her young age, she’s been through a lot already, she experienced a lot of things although at first it hurt but she knew that it was just a challenge for her to be able to grow. Two years later, her parents decided to transfer her into a closer school. She moved in a little city called “Dumaguete”. At the aged of 11, she already experienced the responsibility of having a family. For her and her little brother to study in a good school, her parents sacrificed being away from them. They bought a house for them to stay, but the sad thing was, it was just her, her brother and the two maids that their parents gave them. Seeing your parents twice a month at the age of 11 is really hard. You’re not just longing for their presence but also for their attention. Even though they’re away from each other, her parents never failed to show their love and support for her and her little brother. Through this setting, she learned how to be responsible and mature at her young age. She felt so trusted and at the same time free in all her life. She was not just a sister to her brother but also a mom and at the same time a guardian. Every person in the house looked up to her, followed her decisions and did what she said, she was the head of the house. She learned a lot of things from it, she learned how to manage their weekly money, not just her allowance but for the whole house, their bills, food, everything. She also learned how to make right decisions in life. Two years later, by the age of 13, they finally lived together. She’s finally back to her parents, they lived a not perfect but wonderful life together. At this age, she experienced different kinds of emotions, she met wonderful people just like her previous life in other places. Then 2 years later, she moved again, and she has still the same reason, “Education”. She met new people, deal with new things, experienced new things, learned new stuff until her parents decided to migrate in the USA. Now they’re together again, even though their lives changed, their lifestyles, the job of her parents, everything changed with their lives, it was hard, really hard but as long as their together as one family, they can do everything and surpass any battle in life. This little girl finally grown into a beautiful, strong and compassionate lady. All that she been through in life helped her to become who she is right now. She’s not perfect, just like anyone of us. She commit mistakes most of the time and she has her own short comings and limitations, as well as weaknesses and strengths. She’s just an average person that tries not to be successful in life but to be a great and influential person that she can be. Amidst her imperfections and short comings, she still tries to forgive and love the unlovable, she always tries to find the good side in every situation in her life and tries to focus on it, she appreciate every little thing she have and tries to help the people in need. Everyday she reminds herself that “happiness can‘t be found in money, success, places or even in feelings, but it‘s on every lil kindness that you share, in every smiles and laughter that you‘ve brought into someone’s life”. She tries to be selfless and understanding as she can be. She love’s to spend time with her family and friends, and she loves “PEOPLE” soo much, she loves our imperfection that makes our lives exciting. She love the moments that we smile and laugh. She love how hurt we are during our low times and how we transform into a stronger and better individual after a while. She love our different personalities that made us unique and beautiful. She loves talking to people about anything, and she loves talking to people about what matters most. She loves us. This lady believes that her life started in a very beautiful way and she wants to finish her story in a happy ending. And this little girl that now became a lady is no one else but ME.

A Sad Goodbye

Poem I made ages ago...

A Sad Goodbye

I used to have a sad, pathetic and boring life,
Then I met you,
In a small span of time you made my life so exciting,
challenging and breathtaking,
But I never thought that it could also cause me pain, despair and agony,
I never thought that It could also make me cry, weak and depress,
And it did, It hurts!
It hurts more than you imagine,
You hurt me unknowingly,
You made me feel so low and upset,
Seeing you before makes my day,
But today, seeing you makes my day a disaster,
Because it will just remind me of how painful it is to love someone so much and watching him loving somebody else,
Do you know how it hurts every time I see you with her?
Doing the things I wish we'll do together,
Both of you laughing and giggling together,fooling around and joking to each other,sharing the joys and happiness you feel to each other,Seeing the twinkle of your eyes when you're with her made me jealous,
Why am I feeling this?
I guess it's because I'm just really crazy over you,
Do you know how much I love you?
I guess not,
And It's not important anymore, because what I feel won't matter anyway,
You already have her,
You already have your special someone,
And she loves you too, as much as you love her,
So I guess all I need to do is to let go,
To let go of the person whom I love and crazy about,
Because as what they say, love is all about sacrifice,
So here I am, trying to move on,
Sacrificing my love for your own happiness,
I hope she'll love you more than I do,
I hope she will make you happy and in love always
So goodbye now,goodbye to the memories, to the excitements, and to the breath-taking moments,
Time to face the real world now,
Time to feel the hurt and pain that the reality brings.

Look What I Found!!

Look what I found from my old multiply site :

PROM PICTURES!!!

Feb 12 Memories!

• Went bar hopping at 3 am in the morning wearing our prom dresses
• Danced at the stage (of the bar) wearing our prom dresses,
• Walked at the park while raining still wearing our dresses at 4 in the morning (but Altair was so sweet and all, he offered his Barong thing to me so that I won't get wet while he's finding some shelter for us.. (Aaawww) He accompanied me to the lobby to buy some load but it was closed , so he went to one of the girls that had a crush on him and asked for a load but the girl didn't know that the load was for me, lol that was funny... He even rode a bicycle while we're inside the car since we all can't fit and he paid for our food too! )
• Slept at six in the morning in the hotel room with friends still wearing our prom dresses and barongs, (Yes, it was unplanned)
• I called our maid for extra clothes early in the morning and it ended up me and my friends waiting for her and our driver to arrive inside the hotel room for almost 5 hours,
• Went to School sleepless and late for Family Day
• Yes, the day after our prom was our family day, sucks for us but it was a fun day.
  

Feb 11

With my ever 0h-so-hearthrob-smart-&-famous prom date....

That made me cry during my very first PROM....

I don't want to be your friend no more

Poem made years ago

I don't want to be your friend no more

I don't want to be your friend no more
I used to adore you for being a really great friend,
for being so kind, thoughtful and nice,
for being cheerful and bright,
but one day, It just changed
I know you didn't mean to do it,
but you just didn't hurt me, you made me feel so bad,
I feel so insecure and sad,
It feels like you took my happiness away,
You took the person I really like,
The person who I thought could me mine,
But it couldn't be, since he's yours and your his girl,
And I know that as your friend, I should be happy for both of you,
I tried, I really tried,
but I can't,
Coz It still hurts, It hurts so bad,
I'm sorry though,
I'm sorry for feeling this way,
For being so pathetic,
I want to hate you because
That guy made me feel this pain,
But I can't coz this is all my fault,
My heart's fault,
I can't hate you that's why I hate myself ,
I hate myself because, In the first place,
Why did I told you that I like him,
That I want him so bad, that I want him to be mine,
But I didn't know that you and him will one day be friends,
I didn't know that you will love each other,
I didn't know that you will like him too,
But you know what hurts so bad?
It's the the fact that I used to tell you how much he means to me,
That I like him so much,
That I want to be with him,
And now,
All my dreams happened to you,
You became his girl
You're his world,
Your he's everything,
And I'm just some girl who used to be her girlfriend's friend
that turned out to be "a girl that I once new",
But you know what?
I think it's better if we don't see each other for a while,
Because by doing that, maybe,
Just maybe, we can fix and re-build our once was sweet and great friendship.
So, goodbye for now my friend,
And see you soon.

Some Words Of Wisdom From ME, To ME

Things I realized recently,

Sometimes we spend our whole lives searching for the things we want and get upset and mad if things won't work out our way, but if we really look deep into our lives, we have way more than what we’re searching for...

Sometimes, in order to achieve happiness and contentment in life,
all we need to do is appreciate everything we have, and take all the bad things as challenges that we NEED to face in order to grow as better individuals in this world.

Sometimes, being happy doesn’t always mean laughing, smiling or those oh-so-romantic times, happiness could also be self-satisfaction, where you’re satisfied with your life and the only thing that you could say to God is ‘Thank you Lord for this gift of life’.

Dreams Equals To Happiness?

Dreams = Happiness?

I've always dreamed about so many things in life, from the newest cellphones and computers, to the coolest toys, luxury cars, shoes, purses, to perfect birthday presents, traveling the world, to almost all the extravagant things in life.

Then I realized, we don't really need to dream or wish for something, we just need to know what really makes us happy, then go for it. But of course, dreaming and wanting is unavoidable and most of all unlimited, we can dream and wish for something for the rest of our lives, everyone can and may dream for all the things in life, and some could possibly reach their biggest dreams, some fail for lack of determination or they're not just lucky enough. But the thing is, does it really matter? Does it really matter if you get what you want or not?

Sometimes, we don't realize that in trying to achieve our dreams we already missed the true feeling of "reaching a dream" because your mind is already closed and you've already been blinded by those dreams.

Life is not just about dreams, there's more to life than that. Instead of dreaming all the time, why not enjoy every moment that you have? Instead of trying to be perfect, why not accept the fact that there are really things in life that you can't have and people that you can't please. Life is all about choices, and it's in you if you really wanna live your life in your dreams or live a life where joy and peace is present in you and your loveones life.

Growing In God's Love

Do you still remember when you first started to feel Jesus presence in your life?

I started joining YFC in the Philippines when I was 13, going to different youth camps and diocesan youth days really helped my relationship with GOD. It made me realize that this world is too short for me to hold grudges againts anyone (especially to my love ones) and to be insecure with one another, it also made me realize how amazing God's love for us that he did everything just to save us.

There are also people around me that are just so inspiring, they taught me a lot of things that are really impossible to forget and most of all, they made me more closer to God. They showed me the way to God's arm and I'm so grateful that they came into my way and touched my life.

Now, I can't believe that I'm in YFC again, even though it's kinda different, but they still have the same purpose and reason and that's the most important thing. Though there are times that I still miss those gold old YFC memories in the Philippines, but I'm starting to love my new family here and just like my YFC family in the Philippines, they are God's precious gift to me.

How about you, when did you first felt the presence of the Holy Spirit in your life?

Someday, If I will have my own kids, I would make sure that they will grow in faith and love of GOD and they will love God more than anyone in this world so that they will grow up loving HIM and they will be a better soldiers of God and they will know how to handle world's problems and surpass every trial that will make them a better person, a person that God wants them to be.


These videos are just soooo inspiring! Just imagine if all the children in the world are growing in the love of God, that would be really wonderful but everything starts at their parents, so to all parents out there, make sure that all your kids will grow in faith and love of God... I'm sure, you'll be proud of them when they'll get older.

Maybe, Someday

A friend once asked me why do I like you this much, I can’t even find a single answer.

“I don’t know why,” I replied

Then I realized:

I like you because you make me smile in your own simple ways,

I like the way you talk to me or just the way you look at me,

I like the way laugh, just seeing you around me makes my day,

Even though I keep this feeling a secret,

You don’t know how much you mean to me,

You make my heart skip a beat every time I hear your voice,

Sitting beside you feels like heaven on earth,

You don’t know how happy I am every time our eyes meet,

And much more when our hands touch,

Everytime we talk, we laugh or even seeing you around feels perfect to me,

I'm longing for your presence everyday,

And it hurts to to wake up into reality that I'm just one of your friends,

And you are my world,

I can’t take hiding this feelings anymore,

It’s hurting me like hell,

You’re the first reason why I wanna go to sleep early,

Because there, in my dreams,

Everything feels real and perfect,

I hope one day, someday,

All my dreams will turn into reality,

All my pain and aches will fade away.

Maybe, someday, everything will turn into my way.

Happy Mom's Day!

http://www.veoh.com/videos/v14158182EZFahc5z

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MOMIES IN THE WORLD!!!!

BUT MOST ESPECIALLY TO MY MOM!

Me and my brother went to Covenant to surprise my mom since she's working that time, we gave her 5 huge "Happy Mother's Day" balloons and everybody was like "aaww.. that's soo sweet" my mom was surprised! So we did a great job ^_^

But the major thing that happened to us that day was when we're at the elevator, we got stuck for how many minutes, it was scary! The lights started blinking when we press the 4th floor, we also heard a beeping sound but Thank God it opened. It was really freaky!

Anyways, my mom is the best! I'm the luckiest daughter in the world because she's my MOM and I love her soooo mucho!

Fo' Sho!

I wrote this poem for a friend but this is not applicable to me (just making sure, so that you'll know.lol).

FO SHO!

When I first knew you, I thought you're just one of the many people in my life,
They're with you in good times but invisible in bad times,
I never thought that one day, everything will change
And it's all because of you,

You changed me,
I'm not sure if it's in a good way but I'm happy and thats fo sho!
Even though this is wrong and everything is a mess, you're still the one,
You're still the person in my dreams, the song when i sing and the one that completes my heart.

I don't know why I'm feeling like this,
Maybe I'm just really crazy over you,
You hold the key to my heart, my medicine when I'm sick,
And my soldier in every battle I make.

You're the only one that made me feel like this,
You are my precious treasure that keeps me alive,
My crayons that keeps my life colorful,
My sun that shines into my life,
And my only inspiration in everything I do.

I love you, I know it's wrong but I do,
No matter what happens, I will still love you,
And that's fo sho!

- CAMILLE

( I hope one day, you'll realize that all of these are not worth it, and if that day comes, don't tell me that I didn't warn you, coz I did but I guess you've already been blinded by your emotions  and there's nothing I can do about it. Help yourself... SAVE yourself.

She Felt Soo Contented and Satisfied With Her Life

GUESS WHAT?

Contentment and self-satisfaction is actually happening in real life!
I used to think that contentment and self-satisfaction is out of reach, then recently, I stumbled with some people & their stories,that it made me realize it's actually happening in real life. Ain't that great?
One of my greatest wish is to live a life with contentment, where there's nothing else to ask for but only to be thank for. I even came to the point where I thought it's just one of those dreams that nobody can reach and that it only happens in fairy tales, romantic movies and novels...
Then these people made me realized how unappreciative and selfish I am.
These people are the ones who are worthy to be admired and look up to, they are the ones who we should adore and be proud of . These people who even though they don't really have a "very fabulous life" they consider themselves as one of the luckiest people alive in this world, they can't forget to thank God for every little blessing they received, they don't think of problems as burdens of their lives but as challeges to be faced and a new experiences to be learned.
Aren't they inspiring?
Just imagine our world if all of the people are like them.
But our world nowadays is full of sins, selfishness and insecurities that serves as a barrier of who we really are or who we should be, it blocks the true happiness and the real love that we have inside our hearts. They are the wrappers of our lives, they wrap our good sides so that it'll be unseen-able. They come in different ways and I’m sure in a very attractive way that it’s easier for you to be deceive but when you really think about it, it’s not the wrapper that is important but the thing inside that wrapper. The most important thing is the real love that you have in your life and the real happiness that you will only experience when you have GOD in your life, not in the material things and temporary happiness around you but on how you live your life. And living a life with real happiness and real GOD is the best and the only way to have a great life that every human being in this world is aiming for.

What Is Happiness

In 17 years of my existence in this world, I had experienced a lot of things that made me who I am today. Those experiences are composed of different kinds of emotions that include sadness, loneliness, happiness and a lot more. However, what is really the true meaning of the word "happiness"? According to the Merriam Webster dictionary, the word happiness is defined as enjoying prosperity, a state of well-being and contentment, and a pleasurable or satisfying experience. When people think of happiness, they think about having a great feeling inside, having power over anyone, being popular or famous, or just having lots of money or being rich. Nonetheless, there are many types of happiness which are expressed in many ways. Happiness is something you can't just get. It comes from your soul.In my own point of view, there is really no exact and accurate definition of the word "happiness". Each and every one of us has our own definition of what happiness is and it is based from our experiences and the people we encounter through our journey in this life. John Milton once wrote that “the mind is its own place, and in itself, can make heaven of hell, and a hell of heaven." We make our own happiness and control our own emotions. It is in our hands if we choose to be happy or sad, if we choose to smile or frown because happiness is within ourselves. Happiness can be anything in this world. In kids, it can just be a candy or a chocolate bar. If you're a mom, it could be giggling with your children while lounging around on a Saturday morning in bed, or receiving an A+ grade o r a promotion, getting a phone call from someone you haven't heard from in a while, or just spending a day with the special people in your lives and knowing that someone loves you as much as you love them. Happiness is anyone and anything that you love. Different things make different people happy at different times at different stages of their lives. What makes one happy at a certain time is not necessarily the same as what makes another happy. But for me, my happiness is not found in any material things in this world. Not in fame, power or money but it is found in the people whom I shared my life with. Happiness for me is knowing that my family and friends are safe, secure and healthy, having a home filled with love and laughter, having a life that has no complaints, no problems, no sadness, and no misfortune.
Happiness for me is also doing things for others not because you need to but just simply because you love them, or just hearing "I love you" from my family, friends or any special people in my life whether it's in English or another language. Also, when I'm helping other people and putting their needs above my own, and I know how appreciative they are of my help. I think less about my own selfish wants and needs and find myself perfectly happy at that moment. Although people can get their happiness from many different sources, the most prevalent derivations that cause happiness are family and friends. They are our main sources of happiness. Friendship improves happiness by making our life more colorful and full of wonders and joys. Families are our weapon in every battle we make. In every pain we feel, they are our medicine in every wound we get in this battle of life. Having a wonderful set of friends, a supportive and loving family and most of all God, is all I need to be happy and contented in this journey of life.
I think the way most people would describe their perfect life is actually quite different from what would make them happy. Rather than coming up with imaginary situations that we can label as ideal, we should make the best of the situations we've got – both by improving them, and by appreciating them for what they are. Happiness is one of the most important aspects of a person’s life. Whatever the source, happiness is definitely an essential necessity of life.

When She Turned Seventeen

Saying Goodbye To My Sweet Sixteen Year And A BIG HELLO To My 17th Year In This World


It was just last year when I composed an entry about my life being a fifteen years old and welcoming my new age as a sweet sixteen. And now? Here I am again, To say goodbye and hello. Goodbye my sweet sixteen! It's time to move on now and welcome the year ahead of me and time to say Hello to my 17th year at this world.
It's started exactly sixteen years and 22 hours ago when I was born in this chaotic yet beautiful world, 15 years ago when I celebrated my 1st year old birthday and a year ago when I was declared a sweet sixteen but It's now time to bid goodbye to my not-so-sweet-not-so-sour sixteen and welcome the unknown seventeen.
Being a sixteen year old at this complicated and confusing world was pretty hard for me, I've been to many ups and downs and in my road going to heaven I experienced a lot of broken roads and I sometimes even beat the red light and got lots of over speeding tickets. I can be a reckless driver sometimes but thank God, he never left me alone even though sometimes in my dark moments I question his existence, but still he is always there for me guiding me into the right path.
Okay time to reminisce the old gold memories...
It was August 3 2006 when I celebrated my sweet sixteen birthday and also my first birthday here in Lubbock. I don't really have close friends back then since I just got here 4 months ago from that day so the guest at my birthday party was just my parents friends not my friends but still it was an okay birthday celebration nothing really special except for the new year that God had given me. Then Aug 22 came, First day of school, proud yet embarrased to say I was the first one or one of the first students who arrived at (our school) Frenship, Sat at the cafeteria alone but during lunch time there was a girl (my batch) she asked me if I want to sit with them, and I did then I already had a friend when I was seating at the bench, front of the vending machine and restrooms waiting for my turn to buy something I saw a filipino dude that I saw on friendster but we didn't really greet each other then next class came it was psychology and that filipino dude was also on that class, when the "introduce yourself part came" we started talking to each other since he knew that I'm a filipino too and he was like "filipino ka rin pala! sabi ko na nga be eh" (LOL) then after that we became seat mates and he's name is Mark. After that I also met two young filipino ladies they are Shane and Krisgel , after that we're always together. Then I started to gain friends in school.

It was just one of those ordinary days, I'm bored so I was at TT again and there I knew Anje, we started as teentalk sisters then turned into real sisters! LOL. I first met her at Vam's party. Well, talking about Vam, we knew each other for so long but we never talk to each other before ,hahaha! that's how shy we used to be. She was introduced to me by Tita Marian when I was still new here in LBB after that Hi, nothing happened. We used to see each other all the time since our parents are friends and we even went to San Antonio together but we're not even close or friends? Basta, we became close because of someone and also at her party with Anje. Anje me and mark were classmates at Driver's Ed so we hanged-out every night! (LOL) Anje is also my telebabad mate we can stay at the phone for 7 hours talking about anything and we cursed alot but not to "everybody" (lol). And about Cris, It started at Vam's party too! We keep on calling him to go to Vam's party we even let Vam's mom talked to Cris and at the end he came and then after that every party we're all together. Then a few months later, Krisha and Kat came, I first met then at Cris's party, then Claire and Au too! Although we don't really see each other often, we're all friends. And that's our mini story. BOW
They're my Teen friends I have other set of friends too but since I'm too lazy to type let's just skip them!

The Serious Part
In 17 years of living in this world, I learned a lot of things that are very impossible to forget, maybe because of the reasons behind it, some caused me pain, some made me laugh so hard, some made me cry real hard that I can't even utter a word anymore, some just simply inspired me and some caused me to avoid but all in all because of those, I am who I am today, Scarred yet still Beautiful.As what I learned from my search in times before, when I was still in La Salle, "I am beautiful because I'm Scarred" heck yeah, I still remember those.Now, In 17 years of breathing and causing my parents a headache I can say that I'm stronger and braver than what you think. For just a year, It may not be so obvious but I had face too many problems more than you ever imagine at my age, kept numerous secrets, shed gallons of tears and been hurt a thousand times. I been just quite most of the time but no one really knows what I feel deep inside. But I'm PROUD to say that I have overcome those things! I had surpass every trial and temptations. Thanks for my family for being so supportive and patient all the time. I know I can be stubborn and mean but still, you're there to understand me and love me no matter what, I'm really a bad daughter SOMETIMES (and I know that). I answer back and say what I wanna say but you all are still there never surrendered to love and take care for me, I know I'm soo lucky to have a family like this but there are times that I failed to appreciate it and I'm really sorry for that, and most of all I'm sooo lucky to have a mother like my mom, She is the best mom you could ever have that's why I am the luckiest daughter in the world because she's my mom. And of course, I also thankful for my friends, my friends in the Philippines and here in Lubbock. Because of them I was able to appreciate the color of life and the fun that it brings. I have so many friends and most of them are so great and I love them so much. My family, my friends and my God is my LIFE and the reason why I am still here living this beautiful life.
As I reminisce my 525 948.766 minutes, I realized that these set of new people who I share my life with right now, has been so good to me especially the Lubbock people who became my second family . And most of the new people I met recently has been so nice and good to me also. I have been blessed by a great...great set of people in my life wether it's in The Philippines or here. And I'm very grateful, glad and thankful for the people I shared my life with in the Philippines, it's been years but you never failed to keep in touch with me, you never failed to forget me and Im very ,very blessed to have you all and I know you know who you are. I'm soo blessed by many wonderful things and people in my life and I don't even realize it sometimes.
I can be really mean and rude, and I can be obnoxious and stubborn too but if you're nice to me I can be sooo nice to you too, more than you could ever imagine, just dont mess with me and we're okay. I've been blessed by very patient, caring and understanding people and I don't even know If I deserve everything I have but God just love me so much.

So, to my friends, my love ones in The Philippines, Thank you so much guys! you just never know how much I miss you all and how much you all mean to me. Wether you came from Iloilo, Bacolod, Jimalalud or Sipalay basta I am so thankful to have you in my life because without each one of you I'm not who I am today and you just never know how much you helped and inspired me in living here at this crazy world. You all are my strength every time I'm weak and longing to my beloved country. I miss Philippines so much and most especially you guys because you all are the main reason why I want to go back there badly, and the sweetest days of my life are still in The Philippines and Philippines is still my number 1 home forever! I love you so much guys!
*sigh*
Life is complicated yet exciting, full of problems yet wonderful.
Goodbye to my sweet sixteen days....It was fun, great but at the same time full of confusions. Full of tears, hurts and pains but thanks to these things I learned something special. I experienced so many things this year, It's tough, there are so many awful and bad things that happened but as long as I have my family and friends I can do everything, surpass anything and battle everyone. My family,friends and God, they are my secret weapons in life they are precious than everybody or anything in this world and I will never trade them for anything in this world because they are my life. In 17 year's of traveling in my journey of life, I realized a lot of things, things that I should let go, things that I should value and love.

To end this entry,
I want to say a BIG THANK YOU for every one who are part of my life. Thank you so much. And I thank GOD for being such a great, loving and a very understand father and best friend to me and for giving me everything that I have, everything that I accomplished at this point of my life, I felt so blessed!
So I guess, this is the final goodbye to my sweet sixteen
anda big HELLO and WELCOME to my 17th year in this world.
Let's see what will happen this year.
Love,
Camille

She's Tougher Than LIFE

There are times when I'm overwhelmed by the things around me and the problems that I am facing that caused me to hurt a lot of people even my love ones. Is life really complicated or I'm just the one who made it complicated? But I know that Life is full of test, in every actions we made we are tested on how we respond to it. We are graded not by the things we have but on who we are deep inside our hearts. I was really a bad girl back then; I hate it when things don't go my way and when I don't get what I want. I guess you can call me a spoiled brat since a lot of people think I am, a girl who fights because she can't solve her problems with compassion, a girl who thinks that if she has all the material things that a girl her age could wish she will be the happiest person in the whole world, a girl who thinks that she is the luckiest person in the planet because her parents can give her mostly of anything she wants, and her playmates adored her because of what she has ,not by who she really is. Yeah, I was a really mean, selfish, obnoxious and pathetic girl before. But believe it or not, that mean, selfish, obnoxious and pathetic girl changed, but she went through a lot of hardships, trials, problems, tears and pains first before she realized what really life is all about, she realized that she was the most pathetic girl that she ever knew, she realized that material things are not really that important, It is also the reason why the world is full of selfish people, those people that are so full of themselves, those people who don't mind killing someone just to satisfy their own self, and most of all those people who are so attached to this world that they will do anything just to be the greatest person that they can be even if it's worth someone's life or feelings. We should always remember that the most important things in this life is not on how rich we are, how cool and pretty we are but on how we live our lives that God gave us, on how we use the talents and gifts that he bestowed upon us and on how good we answer the tests that he gave us. Life is full of tests, and those tests are created by God to make us the person he wants us to be, but before we answer those questions, we should see to it that God will be impress on the outcome of our scores. Before doing something or deciding something, see to it that the outcome of that "something" is good not just for yourself but for the people around you also. And if you will always remind yourself that life is full of test you can always find a good reason and answer to everything that is happening in your life right now. Humans as we are, we are fund of questioning rational things and the purpose of things. We always asked questions like "what is the purpose of life?", "where do we came from?" If you will ask these questions to everybody you can find countless answers and those answers are based on their own experiences but, why are we really here? Well for me, we are all here because GOD created us so we are his children and the masterpiece of all his creations. What is the purpose of life? The purpose of life is to serve our Father and we can serve him by just loving his creations and it includes your enemies, the people who hate you and most of all yourself. It may not be easy to love our enemies but sometimes we need to be more understanding, patient and kind towards each other especially to our enemies. There times that I wish I could turn back time and stop it on the day that I was in The Philippines again together with my family and friends having the time of my life, It's just one of my selfish desires that sometimes overcomes my emotions, that lead be into being depress and homesick. One thing I learned about it is that, if you keep on holding your past, you can never move on, but It's just so easy for me to say it, It's really hard when you're in that situation.. Well, who wants to let go of the sweetest and happiest days of their lives? I bet no one would, but sometimes we need to let go so that we can move one and live a new sweet and happy life again.
Life is tough but we are tougher coz we have the ability to think and love, Life is just a place and we have the power to control it, so don't ever say that LIFE is hard because you are the one made it hard.