A Letter To Remind You Always

Dear Camille,

As you travel the sea of life, always remember that the ride will not always going to be smooth, there will always be thunderstorms and huge waves that are going to hit you, but hold on, always stay firm and focus. Don’t let those thunderstorms and waves keep you from your dreams and happiness in life. Take them as challenges that you need to face for you to grow and be a better person. As time goes on, you will be experiencing different kinds of emotions, don’t be scared because it’s just normal, every person in this sea of life goes there. Don’t be sad if people who are close to your heart will leave you. I know it’s painful but that’s life, people come and go, just hold on to all the learning that you’ve got from them and the sweet memories that you had but let go of the sad feeling, accept the fact that their destination is different from yours and move on. Don’t be lonely if life doesn’t always go the way you want it to be, because your life is already planned in a very beautiful way, maybe you can’t understand it now yet but just stay faithful and give your full trust to your Creator. He knows what’s best for you. From time to time, you will be experiencing loneliness, you will feel alone and empty. You may think that everybody turned their back at you. Use this time to reflect, think of all the things you did, the people in your life and on how you lived your life. I know loneliness and emptiness are very distressing but that’s just part of life, just like happiness and excitement, the things that people feel and go through. When you feel alone and empty, don’t hold on to that feeling. Don’t worry, it’s just temporary if you know how to deal with it. Take it as a reason to do something more meaningful in your life. When things get shaky and rough, it doesn’t mean it’s the end of your journey. No, it’s just a sign that something good will happen to you, there will always be a rainbow after the rain. Along your journey you will also meet different kinds of people who have different beliefs, religion, culture and life than you. They may be different but it doesn’t mean you can’t get along with them. The world is full of differences and that’s what makes us unique. Instead of turning away from them, get to know them, understand them and explore their world because by doing that, you will not just learn new things but most of all, you will gain a treasure and that is the gift of friendship. Don’t look at differences as a bad thing, instead look at that as a blessing. God gave us different roles to portray in this world, we have different task and missions to accomplish as well as different dreams and goals to achieve. Don’t look down to other people just because you think you’re better than them, it’s not fair. They may be poor, not so good-looking, has different color, race or personality than you, but it doesn’t mean someone’s better than the other, no, it’s just that we may be created differently but equally (in an equal way) and I want you to always remember that. Life is not a competition but a journey to be traveled and enjoyed. Along your journey, you will also meet people that are difficult to deal with, you may think their stubborn and hateful but don’t hate them. They may hate you, hurt you or just simply dislike you, but instead of doing the same things to them, stay nice, understanding and loving. I know it’s hard but don’t let human emotions get you down. Take them as challenges for yourself, for you to grow and see different views of life. Always remember that no one is pure evil in this world, no matter how rude or hateful a person is, there is always a good side behind that, you may not see it now yet but if you wait long enough, you will and you’ll be surprise how great of a person they are. Being hateful is not always the answer, and will never be but the opposite of that is. I know this is already a very lengthy letter, I hope you’ll follow all of these, this will not just help you grow as a person but also in your faith. Be strong and compassionate always, make this letter a reminder in your everyday life as you travel your way through your destination.

P.S Don’t forget to SMILE and HAVE FUN from time to time, you need that too, it’s a necessity of life.

Love,

Yourself

A Wonderful Story

18 years ago, a blessed couple had their first child and it was a baby girl. She was born in this world with tender, love and care that her parents and the people around her had given her. She was raised with compassion, freedom, and dignity. She spent her grade school and high school years in different schools and places. At the age of 9, she was already away from her family, she went to school 10 hours away from her parents and her real home. She stayed with her Lola Rose for a couple of years, although her Lola loved her soooo much, she still missed her family so bad, especially her mom. She would cry every night and wait for her parent’s call all the time. Even at her young age, she’s been through a lot already, she experienced a lot of things although at first it hurt but she knew that it was just a challenge for her to be able to grow. Two years later, her parents decided to transfer her into a closer school. She moved in a little city called “Dumaguete”. At the aged of 11, she already experienced the responsibility of having a family. For her and her little brother to study in a good school, her parents sacrificed being away from them. They bought a house for them to stay, but the sad thing was, it was just her, her brother and the two maids that their parents gave them. Seeing your parents twice a month at the age of 11 is really hard. You’re not just longing for their presence but also for their attention. Even though they’re away from each other, her parents never failed to show their love and support for her and her little brother. Through this setting, she learned how to be responsible and mature at her young age. She felt so trusted and at the same time free in all her life. She was not just a sister to her brother but also a mom and at the same time a guardian. Every person in the house looked up to her, followed her decisions and did what she said, she was the head of the house. She learned a lot of things from it, she learned how to manage their weekly money, not just her allowance but for the whole house, their bills, food, everything. She also learned how to make right decisions in life. Two years later, by the age of 13, they finally lived together. She’s finally back to her parents, they lived a not perfect but wonderful life together. At this age, she experienced different kinds of emotions, she met wonderful people just like her previous life in other places. Then 2 years later, she moved again, and she has still the same reason, “Education”. She met new people, deal with new things, experienced new things, learned new stuff until her parents decided to migrate in the USA. Now they’re together again, even though their lives changed, their lifestyles, the job of her parents, everything changed with their lives, it was hard, really hard but as long as their together as one family, they can do everything and surpass any battle in life. This little girl finally grown into a beautiful, strong and compassionate lady. All that she been through in life helped her to become who she is right now. She’s not perfect, just like anyone of us. She commit mistakes most of the time and she has her own short comings and limitations, as well as weaknesses and strengths. She’s just an average person that tries not to be successful in life but to be a great and influential person that she can be. Amidst her imperfections and short comings, she still tries to forgive and love the unlovable, she always tries to find the good side in every situation in her life and tries to focus on it, she appreciate every little thing she have and tries to help the people in need. Everyday she reminds herself that “happiness can‘t be found in money, success, places or even in feelings, but it‘s on every lil kindness that you share, in every smiles and laughter that you‘ve brought into someone’s life”. She tries to be selfless and understanding as she can be. She love’s to spend time with her family and friends, and she loves “PEOPLE” soo much, she loves our imperfection that makes our lives exciting. She love the moments that we smile and laugh. She love how hurt we are during our low times and how we transform into a stronger and better individual after a while. She love our different personalities that made us unique and beautiful. She loves talking to people about anything, and she loves talking to people about what matters most. She loves us. This lady believes that her life started in a very beautiful way and she wants to finish her story in a happy ending. And this little girl that now became a lady is no one else but ME.

A Sad Goodbye

Poem I made ages ago...

A Sad Goodbye

I used to have a sad, pathetic and boring life,
Then I met you,
In a small span of time you made my life so exciting,
challenging and breathtaking,
But I never thought that it could also cause me pain, despair and agony,
I never thought that It could also make me cry, weak and depress,
And it did, It hurts!
It hurts more than you imagine,
You hurt me unknowingly,
You made me feel so low and upset,
Seeing you before makes my day,
But today, seeing you makes my day a disaster,
Because it will just remind me of how painful it is to love someone so much and watching him loving somebody else,
Do you know how it hurts every time I see you with her?
Doing the things I wish we'll do together,
Both of you laughing and giggling together,fooling around and joking to each other,sharing the joys and happiness you feel to each other,Seeing the twinkle of your eyes when you're with her made me jealous,
Why am I feeling this?
I guess it's because I'm just really crazy over you,
Do you know how much I love you?
I guess not,
And It's not important anymore, because what I feel won't matter anyway,
You already have her,
You already have your special someone,
And she loves you too, as much as you love her,
So I guess all I need to do is to let go,
To let go of the person whom I love and crazy about,
Because as what they say, love is all about sacrifice,
So here I am, trying to move on,
Sacrificing my love for your own happiness,
I hope she'll love you more than I do,
I hope she will make you happy and in love always
So goodbye now,goodbye to the memories, to the excitements, and to the breath-taking moments,
Time to face the real world now,
Time to feel the hurt and pain that the reality brings.

Look What I Found!!

Look what I found from my old multiply site :

PROM PICTURES!!!

Feb 12 Memories!

• Went bar hopping at 3 am in the morning wearing our prom dresses
• Danced at the stage (of the bar) wearing our prom dresses,
• Walked at the park while raining still wearing our dresses at 4 in the morning (but Altair was so sweet and all, he offered his Barong thing to me so that I won't get wet while he's finding some shelter for us.. (Aaawww) He accompanied me to the lobby to buy some load but it was closed , so he went to one of the girls that had a crush on him and asked for a load but the girl didn't know that the load was for me, lol that was funny... He even rode a bicycle while we're inside the car since we all can't fit and he paid for our food too! )
• Slept at six in the morning in the hotel room with friends still wearing our prom dresses and barongs, (Yes, it was unplanned)
• I called our maid for extra clothes early in the morning and it ended up me and my friends waiting for her and our driver to arrive inside the hotel room for almost 5 hours,
• Went to School sleepless and late for Family Day
• Yes, the day after our prom was our family day, sucks for us but it was a fun day.
  

Feb 11

With my ever 0h-so-hearthrob-smart-&-famous prom date....

That made me cry during my very first PROM....

I don't want to be your friend no more

Poem made years ago

I don't want to be your friend no more

I don't want to be your friend no more
I used to adore you for being a really great friend,
for being so kind, thoughtful and nice,
for being cheerful and bright,
but one day, It just changed
I know you didn't mean to do it,
but you just didn't hurt me, you made me feel so bad,
I feel so insecure and sad,
It feels like you took my happiness away,
You took the person I really like,
The person who I thought could me mine,
But it couldn't be, since he's yours and your his girl,
And I know that as your friend, I should be happy for both of you,
I tried, I really tried,
but I can't,
Coz It still hurts, It hurts so bad,
I'm sorry though,
I'm sorry for feeling this way,
For being so pathetic,
I want to hate you because
That guy made me feel this pain,
But I can't coz this is all my fault,
My heart's fault,
I can't hate you that's why I hate myself ,
I hate myself because, In the first place,
Why did I told you that I like him,
That I want him so bad, that I want him to be mine,
But I didn't know that you and him will one day be friends,
I didn't know that you will love each other,
I didn't know that you will like him too,
But you know what hurts so bad?
It's the the fact that I used to tell you how much he means to me,
That I like him so much,
That I want to be with him,
And now,
All my dreams happened to you,
You became his girl
You're his world,
Your he's everything,
And I'm just some girl who used to be her girlfriend's friend
that turned out to be "a girl that I once new",
But you know what?
I think it's better if we don't see each other for a while,
Because by doing that, maybe,
Just maybe, we can fix and re-build our once was sweet and great friendship.
So, goodbye for now my friend,
And see you soon.

Some Words Of Wisdom From ME, To ME

Things I realized recently,

Sometimes we spend our whole lives searching for the things we want and get upset and mad if things won't work out our way, but if we really look deep into our lives, we have way more than what we’re searching for...

Sometimes, in order to achieve happiness and contentment in life,
all we need to do is appreciate everything we have, and take all the bad things as challenges that we NEED to face in order to grow as better individuals in this world.

Sometimes, being happy doesn’t always mean laughing, smiling or those oh-so-romantic times, happiness could also be self-satisfaction, where you’re satisfied with your life and the only thing that you could say to God is ‘Thank you Lord for this gift of life’.

Dreams Equals To Happiness?

Dreams = Happiness?

I've always dreamed about so many things in life, from the newest cellphones and computers, to the coolest toys, luxury cars, shoes, purses, to perfect birthday presents, traveling the world, to almost all the extravagant things in life.

Then I realized, we don't really need to dream or wish for something, we just need to know what really makes us happy, then go for it. But of course, dreaming and wanting is unavoidable and most of all unlimited, we can dream and wish for something for the rest of our lives, everyone can and may dream for all the things in life, and some could possibly reach their biggest dreams, some fail for lack of determination or they're not just lucky enough. But the thing is, does it really matter? Does it really matter if you get what you want or not?

Sometimes, we don't realize that in trying to achieve our dreams we already missed the true feeling of "reaching a dream" because your mind is already closed and you've already been blinded by those dreams.

Life is not just about dreams, there's more to life than that. Instead of dreaming all the time, why not enjoy every moment that you have? Instead of trying to be perfect, why not accept the fact that there are really things in life that you can't have and people that you can't please. Life is all about choices, and it's in you if you really wanna live your life in your dreams or live a life where joy and peace is present in you and your loveones life.